| how could this happen......one minute fine the next....it's gone....i didn't want to do this but i have to release my pain somehow....my phone is broken i can't talk to anyone...or him....and nobody uses xanga anyway.....
i'm spending christmas alone this year....my parents don't want to get me anything......i live alone in this 3 bedroom apartment with reminders around every corner......work....well it's work....mandee works with me now so that makes the day better and bob is fun to go on breaks with as well..........but this nawing pain is in my heart.....i called into work today...i shouldn't have but i did....i need the money sooo bad.....i kinda don't care anymore
i love him with all my heart......but it wasn't enough......i tried so hard to make him happy but i'm a failure as a girlfriend.....i'm no longer the most beautiful girl in the world.......i was really starting to believe it.........i wish i could go back in time and change some things........god i wish i could.......i would give anything to do that.....
"I've had a huge addition to my life.
My beautiful, charming, wonderful, and amazing girlfriend. Esteé.
I love her so so so much, she's my everything and I enjoy every second I spend with her.
She watches over me, cares about me, and is always doing things for me that make me feel like a little kid again.
I love her dearly and I look forward to spending a lot of time with her in the future." -chris
"I would go to the end of the world for you, to make sure that you're just as happy as you've made me."-chris
"I love you more than anything in the world, and I think about you
constantly. Thank you for choosing me. I must make a decent sized
impact on your life for you to choose me. So Thank you again, and once
again, I love you so very very much."- chris
god damnit why does it hurt soooo bad.......hes my panda bear......i love my panda bear sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fucking much! i really am the most pathetic person in this world right now.....but what do you expect....i'm all alone right now and nobody is here to comfort me.......i can't trust myself right now either......i hate myself........i want to go back......back to normal....or better yet.....back to that trampoline......back to dock wheeler......back in that car listening to tenacious d
i don't think i could take it if he started dating other people right now.........i would die......just go to new york.....have a good life.......let me die.....here......alone........damnit i love him so much
With all my heart and all my love,
The One The Only
Ugly: Esteé Alana Thilby Aguirre Sinclair
bah bah bah...........
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| Hey there assholes!
So i work for wal-mart now......it's basically gay but ohh well.....it puts me closer to moving out.....i can't fucking wait!
look at how badass we look! check out the site www.myspace.com/mechanica
there is actually no point in checking it out there is nothing on there but eventually there will be
i got guitar hero 80's edition and almost beat it my first day of getting it...i have three songs left
i got some sexy shoes and corset so i'm excited about it...i kinda want to take pics of myself is that messed up...maybe not
don't tell mandee i put this pic up here she will be pissed!
i love my pandabear *muah* can't wait
much luv,
The One
The Only
Esteé Alana Thilby Aguirre Sinclair |
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| So there's this guy......you all may know him....he's amazing....it's been a year and a half since we met and well finally we are an "item"
we can have fun together no matter what and that is what is important to me....he's an amazing person and i hope i can prove to be an amazing person like he is to everyone else....eventhough i can be super weird and mess things up i know that i love him and i should try to be a badass like him and not a bitch like i can be.....
i love you........
p.s. you are such a cutie in the last pic i just want to tear you apart....like a kitten
Much luv,
The One
The Only
Esteé Alana Thilby Aguirre Sinclair
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| Hey ppls!!!!!!!!!
HAPPY 4th OF JULY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Much Luv,
The One
The Only
Esteé Alana Thilby Aguirre Sinclair |
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